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Fearfulness...

Does everything I make have to be great?

NO!!!

But sometimes it sure feels like it.  Every now and then this creature that is locked up inside of me comes out and starts whispering in my ear...pss...Kalaya,

that is not good enough...
no one is going to like that...
look, that artist work is better than yours...
you really should be making things that are going to sell...
maybe you should just quit...

AaaaHhhhhh!  
So then I become paralyzed.  I question every step I make and end up not making anything at all.  
And this is where I have been for an entire week.
Full of FEAR!!!

How does one get out of it?  I have not a clue but after a week here is what worked for me.  First I had to talk to myself in letting go of the outcome.  To just roll with it and realize that it was going to be okay no matter what.  That is when I went to the bench and made a piece.  It sort of helped that it was Valentine's Day and I had nothing for Hobo.  Damn Hallmark for making me feel like this!  Hehehe!!!
And that is exactly what I did.
I made a money clip for Hobo.  The etching is a formula for the second law of thermodynamics.  Well...I forgot to put the equal sign in there.  ΔS ≧ 0 
I drew the design with a sharpie on brass and etched.  It means that Entropy is increasing towards a disordered state until there is nothing left.

Then that voice started talking to me again...

not good enough

but I shut him down and went back to the bench to make another 4 more clips for the March 2nd Freret Market here in NOLA.  Did I mention that it will be my very FIRST market!  Eeeeeee!!!  So nervous.  

Here is a sneak peek...
It is not easy pushing that voice out of your head.  
All I have to remember is to stay true to my game and the rest will come.  I think I will paint a canvas with that saying on it!  HA! 

So stay true to your game and remember...
EMBRACE CHAOS

Namaste
Kalaya

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