Skip to main content

Fearfulness...

Does everything I make have to be great?

NO!!!

But sometimes it sure feels like it.  Every now and then this creature that is locked up inside of me comes out and starts whispering in my ear...pss...Kalaya,

that is not good enough...
no one is going to like that...
look, that artist work is better than yours...
you really should be making things that are going to sell...
maybe you should just quit...

AaaaHhhhhh!  
So then I become paralyzed.  I question every step I make and end up not making anything at all.  
And this is where I have been for an entire week.
Full of FEAR!!!

How does one get out of it?  I have not a clue but after a week here is what worked for me.  First I had to talk to myself in letting go of the outcome.  To just roll with it and realize that it was going to be okay no matter what.  That is when I went to the bench and made a piece.  It sort of helped that it was Valentine's Day and I had nothing for Hobo.  Damn Hallmark for making me feel like this!  Hehehe!!!
And that is exactly what I did.
I made a money clip for Hobo.  The etching is a formula for the second law of thermodynamics.  Well...I forgot to put the equal sign in there.  Î”S ≧ 0 
I drew the design with a sharpie on brass and etched.  It means that Entropy is increasing towards a disordered state until there is nothing left.

Then that voice started talking to me again...

not good enough

but I shut him down and went back to the bench to make another 4 more clips for the March 2nd Freret Market here in NOLA.  Did I mention that it will be my very FIRST market!  Eeeeeee!!!  So nervous.  

Here is a sneak peek...
It is not easy pushing that voice out of your head.  
All I have to remember is to stay true to my game and the rest will come.  I think I will paint a canvas with that saying on it!  HA! 

So stay true to your game and remember...
EMBRACE CHAOS

Namaste
Kalaya
Labels:

Comments

Post a Comment

I would love to hear from you!

Popular posts from this blog

The Risk to Bloom

It all started with an acorn button and grew from there. In an earlier post I mentioned this button swap blog hop, that I am participating in, and how I was immediately drawn to the acorn button.  Every day I would hold it in my hand, feel its essence, exam it, and then put it down.  This lasted for about 2 weeks. Then I remembered I had etched an oak tree on to brass when making buttons for my partner Kylie of Lotus Out Loud .  And... so begins the journey of creating something with this wonderful acorn button, which only started yesterday. Haha!  Etched brass was copper riveted to a piece of oak.  Merci beaucoup Papi for finding some oak!   I am using what Jesse taught me in his workshop .  It was the first time trying his technique.  It worked beautifully! The riveted brass was then captured with a piece of pierced copper. Voila! And then the day came  when the risk to remain tight in...
24 comments
Read more

Pepe Jump Ring Maker...New Is Not Always Better...

For the follow up (2014) on jump ring makers go here . Introducing Pepe's new AND improved Jump Ring maker... When I received my new jump ring maker I knew the new model was more compact but did not expect it to be so unstable.  It was precarious but I accepted it.  After all I will have jump rings galore with a single swipe!  The outcome outweighed the little difference and yes...I am lazy!  hahaha!!! To the bench I go to test things out. Test No. 1 The first set of jump rings turned out great!  I was satisfied.   ☺ I then received an email saying that the top plate (cover) that came with the system was too thick and needed to be replaced.  Okay.   I receive the new plate but did not test it out until some friends were over and wanted a demo.  Well...it was difficult to place the handpiece collar over the plate.  It did not fit over the coil holding device very well.  I had to finagle it to go in ...
7 comments
Read more

Helloooo...Is Anyone Out There?

Yes I know.  I have been off the blogger for awhile.  I swear I've been working!  ;) I have been busy trying to find my own path and I think I have finally found it. Ha!  A lot of "I"'s in that sentance.   So that being said, what exactly have I been doing? Participated in an Upcycle show at RHINO Gallery. In this show we were to use at least 75% recycled material.  This piece was  inspired by the 43 students of Ayotzinapa that were taken on September 27, 2014 and presumbly met a violent death at the hands of corrupt officials and a drug gang. . The initials of all 43 students were etched into the .38 caliber casing. I cried after comleting the piece.  It was so powerful to me. Ghosts   Designed and made earrings. Astro Earrings Sugar Skulls Did a commission. Comission Annnd made one big pendant. Louisiana Opal, sponge coral (grandma's), oxidized silver, 14KY, 22KY Am I having fun yet? ...
5 comments
Read more